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Tuesday, 22 January 2019

I hate to say I hate but God help me I hate, I wish Ricky Tow, Amanda Hill, and Richard Cates would die, I don't deserve this, i'm not perfect by no means but I don't deserve this, WHERE ARE YOU GOD? I am sick of hearing get a job even if it pays 8 an hour instead of just sitting at home eating and using electricity, tell your mother you can't go spend ther night you got to geta job, your fucking right I hate, and I am losing my faith.

Saturday, 5 January 2019

I wish I could go back to a simple time in life, but this is the life I've been giving, it's 9:08 PM and I'm in a dark park prepared to sleep in my car unfortunately i'm not tired, I'm just kinda lost scared and confused, today started off ok  Until my husband told me that I shouldn't be talking to my 30
Year old friend and I was probably screwing my boss, hearing about money is bad enough, but hearing that im the biggest mistake he's ever made is the worst. Maybe he's right I can't keep a man or a job my kids hate me, I hate myself, and i'm a coward because I can't get rid of myself, I have no money, and I seem to be on God's shit list all the time, some people would envy me or tell me im selfish and maybe they are right, I have an uncle dying of cancer, I would trade places with him because he belongs here more than I do, if  anything happens to me, I would like someone to help my mom through it, and tell Amanda Hill and Ricky Tow and Richard Cates that they set up this chain of events.

Tuesday, 1 January 2019

Today January 1st 2019,
     Feels just as sucky as 2018 and it's just begun. Amanda and Ricky I hope this new year gives yall exactly what's coming to you, I hope your spouses find out about your affair, I hope both your worlds crumble, because mine sure has thanks to you.
Amanda go back to Colorado. Bowie take him back.